The Incredible Holts

The Incredible Holts
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Sunday, December 28, 2008

All I want for Christmas is...

My two front teeth. Okay I know that I am posting 3 blogs today, but a lot has happened since the last time. Marley lost her other tooth 4 days before Christmas. She looks so funny... just thought I would share with everyone!

Reflection on 2008...

As we are approaching the end of 2008, I have been doing some reflecting on this year. We have had the biggest year of our marriage. Colby quit his job he had for 11 years, with the economy being the worst we have ever seen. This seemed not only scary, but in some ways stupid. But he did it in May. I have to say that I realized this year that his faith is stronger than mine. I spent a month crying and being scared out of my mind, but he kept it together saying it would be okay. Well, you all know what happens, he gets hired on with the City of Phoenix as a police recruit. Wow, what a blessing! He knew... he just knew.
We have had so many blessings this year. From real life changing blessings, to simple "wow, someone is looking out for us" blessings. Some of those life changing blessings are Colby's new job and me graduating with my master degree. Here are some pictures of my graduation.

It's over! Thank goodness! Woo Hoo! Can you believe it? Misty Jeanette Holt, M.Ed.???? Who knew?

The true Holt family!

My kids are the reason I returned to school. I wanted them to know that anything is possible. I wrote on my cap to remind them that this one was for them.

I am so grateful for this day and this moment. Which reminds me to tell you about one of those "wow, someone is looking out for us" blessings. Colby is not allowed to take any day off while he is in the academy. So the entire time I was planning on graduating, we both knew he wouldn't be able to come because it was on a Friday @ 9:00AM. This made me really sad and almost made me not want to walk. He has a schedule for each week the whole time he is in the academy. The week before my graduation he looked at his schedule and for some reason it was a 4 - 10 (4 days 10 hours)schedule that week and that week only, which meant he had that Friday off. On December 19th it simply read "Day off". He had my graduation off! What, are you kidding????? No I am not! He was able to come to my graduation, wow, someone is looking out for us! It was a just another reminder that our Heavenly Father loves us and is looking out for us yet again. Some things that even seem impossible He makes them happen. Wow.

Well, as another year ends and 2009 begins, I know that this year will be filled with great memories, life changing blessings, and of course "wow, someone is looking out for us" blessings. Colby graduates from the academy on January 19th. Please pray for us. He has several different test that he must pass, and he is really stressed out. I know that soon I will posting his graduation pictures, and I have to say that it will be a far greater accomplishment than I have ever done. He has worked harder in the last 5 months than I ever have. He is amazing. My love has grown so much for him this year. I am so blessed to have him as my husband.

Oh I almost forgot, another life changing blessing that I had this year was becoming an aunt, how could I forget that????? Here is a picture of the little miracle!

Christmas Eve traditions...

Every Christmas Eve we have the same tradition. I am usually finishing up on some last minute gifts, wrapping, and of course doing our annual bake off. Katherine and Jes come over every year and we have a Christmas movie marathon and we bake cookies, pies, banana bread, fudge, peanut brittle, peanut clusters, and what every our hearts desire. We have been doing this now for 8 years. We probably only have a few more years left because Katherine is 16. She will be in college, getting married, and doing her own thing. I hope we can still continue our traditions.

I love Christmas Eve more than Christmas day. I have time to really think about the true meaning of Christmas, the birth of our savior. I read "God bless your way" to the kids. It is a Christmas Journey in another person's perspective. I really liked it, but I think it kind of confused Marley.

I am so thankful that I can share with my kids the true meaning of Christmas. With this year's added stress, it was really difficult getting into the Christmas spirit. My Aunt Lara told me to buy the movie "It's a Wonderful Life." I made the kids watch it with me. That helped me find the other meaning of Christmas, a time to think of others instead of myself. It was my grandmother's favorite movie. I talked to the kids and we added to our tradition. We gave each child 10 dollars. They had to pick a name and go to the store to buy for their person. It was a lot of fun since we made them keep it a secret of who they picked. I am not sure if it worked, but maybe as they get older they will understand.

My kids all took their turns being sick the week of Christmas. Marley wrote a letter to Santa and she ask for her health and to be well for Christmas day. She ran a temperature all day Christmas Eve. She did feel better on Christmas day, so I guess there is a Santa, not that I ever questioned it.

Today is Sunday and I stayed home from church. I guess it is my turn to have the flu. I am a little irritated because I really wanted to take down my Christmas trees. They are still up and it makes me really sad. But I feel like crap, excuse the language there just isn't a better word that I can think of at the moment. I get really nervous and suffer from anxiety after Christmas and on New Year's day. I am not sure why, I just worry about what the next year is going to bring. I just keep reminding myself that I need to control what I can and the rest just give to my Heavenly Father. Hope everyone enjoyed their Christmas and has a safe New Year.

Saturday, December 13, 2008


Well, as of Friday Colby is considered the Senior class in the police academy, wow! In the past, Colby and I have truly endured our share of challenges, but by far this has been the most difficult. In August I was thinking about not continuing my education because he was starting this program, but with some encouragement from friends I decided that I would take the last two classes to finish grad school. Well, in the middle of the semester I decided that I wasn't going to graduate because I didn't have the time to meet all of the other requirements for graduation. But, again with some encouragement, I decided a week before my lesson was due that I would give it a try. Well, enough said, I meet all of the requirements and I am graduating on Friday. I just am so thankful that I have so many encouraging friends and family that surround me. A lady from work sent me an email that read,
You truly are my hero!!! To have the strength, determination, patience, and fortitude to complete your Master’s Degree while WORKING FULL TIME, RAISING FOUR CHILDREN, and KEEPING YOUR HUSBAND HAPPY (and doing it ALL without drinking)…….you deserve to be on a postage stamp!! I am so proud of you and so happy for you that it is DONE!!!! Congratulations!! Love, Karen
I thought a lot about what she said and I thought to myself, "I didn't do it alone. I don't do anything alone. I couldn't have done it without my Heavenly Father. I have lived on my knees for the last 4 months pleading with him to give me strength. And the only reason why Colby and I are where we are is completely prayer."
I have to testify that I know he answers our prayers, and if you ever wonder look around and you will find the proof. There is no doubt that we have received several blessings in 2008, but I am looking forward to it coming to an end. I hope that 2009 will be a healing year, for our country and family.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

All I want for Christmas...

Marley officially lost her tooth! The other one is loose too, my little girl is growing up so fast. There is a cute story behind this tooth. She was so excited to show her teachers her tooth that she took it to school in a baggy. Well I guess during lunch she lost it in the cafeteria. The PE teacher that was doing lunch duty saw a 1st grader (Marley) crying over this lost tooth. See, she hadn't a chance to get money from the tooth fairy yet and she was worried that she wouldn't get any money. Coach Allen took Marley to the nurse's office and got her one of the tooth necklaces and then she wrote a letter to the tooth fairy ensuring her that she was a witness and Marley really did lose her tooth. I am not sure why this impressed me so much, but I almost started to cry. I know how busy teachers are, especially the primary teachers. Coach Allen cared enough about Marley to take time and go above and beyond a teacher's duty and for that I am grateful. This simple act of kindness not only helped a first grader to stop crying, but made her mom realize that the world is still good and people aren't always in a rush. Teachers care for all kids, that is why they have devoted their lives to teach our children.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

My five day break...

Well I have had quite a memorable weekend... my weekend started last Tuesday night. It was wonderful. I watched a movie... yes, I found the time. I spent Wednesday getting ready for Thanksgiving since I was expecting 60 people at my house. I made pies with my sister in law Britt, she is a rookie so it was kind of a tough thing to do. We decided to go and see the movie Twilight. This would be my second time, Britt's first. It was so good the second time! I normally go to bed at around 8 o'clock and the movie started at 10. I really felt like I was a teenager again, well in some ways. I have heard several different opinions about the movie, but I just want to give my two cents since this is my blog and, well, just because I can, I loved it! I ended up seeing it 3 times! Yes, I just can't help it!

My Thanksgiving was absolutely wonderful! I enjoyed myself so much. I love when my family come over and there isn't anything else going on except for just enjoying each other. I missed my Aunt Marsha and a few others, but I want to say that it was just a delightful day.

Colby and me just enjoying the day.

This is the lovely vegetable platter that I bought just for Thankgiving, the vegetables were good too.

Katherine and Kyla

My mom and me taking charge of the kitchen.

Well, as you can see I did have a good weekend. But I had a scary weekend too. Friday morning, Colby woke up with this weird lump on his head. He was in really bad pain so he went to urgent care. There they gave him a shot and some antibiotics. Saturday he felt worse, so again he went to urgent care. They told him there was nothing they could do, but they gave him some pain medicine. Well, keep a long story short, Monday after work he felt even worse so we went back to urgent care. They sent us to the hospital, and finally he got fixed! Now the picture you are about to see is graphic, so if you have a weak stomache, don't look!

Pretty gross, huh?

Well, it is Tuesday night and I can't tell you have excited I am to finally see my husband relaxed and not in pain. I always thank my Heavenly Father for my family's health, but not with much thought. These last couple of days I just wanted Colby to feel better so bad, I need to show more gratitude for our health. It has been a long couple of days. I feel so blessed that Colby is finally feeling somewhat better. He is on 3 different antibiotics, but at least he is not in pain and is on his way to recovery! Woo!

Now, for my final thoughts. For those of you who do not know, I have been in grad school for two years now. I am finishing my last two classes, actually my last night of school is tomorrow. I had to do several things to graduate. I had to take a multiple choice test, which I passed. But I have been waiting several weeks to get the results from ASU about my lesson plan and video. Well anyway, I found out tonight that I passed! I graduate on December 19th. I couldn't be happier, or should I say, relieved! I AM DONE WITH SCHOOL! I can't believe that those words are leaving my mouth! I AM DONE WITH SCHOOL! Here is the exact email:

Good afternoon,

The scoring committee for the Content Academy comprehensive examination has met and scored your lesson plan. I am happy to announce that you have passed all parts of the comprehensive exam! You will receive an official letter from the department chair soon. Congratulations!

I just couldn't believe it... there is my Christmas gift... this one I gave to myself.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Its the time of the year again...

Here is the 26 pound Turkey!

Dedication! What are we going to buy?

Yes, Margaret got tons of deals!

Well for those of you who don't know, Thanksgiving is always held at my house. It has been a family tradition for 8 years now. So last year my family from Kansas came out and we had a house full. I found a 26 lb turkey, yes and I have the picture to prove it! Anyway, I am getting excited, because we only have a couple of more weeks before we are eating turkey and GETTING READY FOR SHOPPING! Yes, that is right! SHOP, SHOP, SHOP, until we drop or run out of money! It all starts immediately after dinner, we all surround the table and make lists! The list can contain many things we don't need, but they are such good deals we can't help ourselves! I have no idea what my kids want this year for Christmas, but whatever it is I can find it for 1/2 the price on Black Friday! We start off at Walmart, then head over to Target, some split off and go to Mervyns. When we got all of those deals we head to KOHLS where just about everything is 50% off. If you can imagine, it is like the Amazing Race reality show with a bunch of Ribordys! Every year we find ourselves exhausted standing outside Chili's waiting for it to open. It has been a family tradition to go shopping on Black Friday and I can't imagine Thanksgiving without this tradition. Last year was the first year that Colby went with me, we had so much fun. There are around 20 family members that wake up at 3 am and head out to find those deals of a life time! If you have never gone, try it, I guarantee you will be addicted! The deal last year was my Cricut, regularly $185 and found it at Walmart for $114. AWESOME!

1 year and a half ago...

I was looking through some pictures and ran into these pics. I was blown away to see how young the twins looked. They are so grown up now and these pictures were taken almost a year and a half ago at their baptism. They were baptized on their 8th birthday, May 12, 2007. These pictures reminded me that life goes by so fast. So much has changed since these pictures were taken. Not only have the people in the pictures changed, but the life they once knew is totally different. The change isn't a negative change, but it's just changed. Things, jobs, priorities, schools, presidents, and everything else that has any of importance... ummm. But most importantly, the people in the pictures have grown.
Anyway, aren't they precious?

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Humble and somber presence...

Today has been a very challenging, emotional, humbling, and solemn day. The day after a presidential election. I watched a historical moment as I laid on my couch last night after waiting in line for over 2 ½ hours to vote for a man that wasn’t elected president. I have never felt so nervous about a person being elected for president, Barack Obama… which takes a lot for me to even say because I don’t want people to think it is about the color of his skin. I loved McCain… but now it is time for me to support my country and the decision we made. I will support Barack Obama as my president. I will follow McCain and I will in "not just congratulating him, but offering our next president our good will and earnest effort to find ways to come together." - Senator McCain. I love this country, and I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for being born in a free country. I am thankful that I live in a country that allows me to vote and voice my opinion. I am thankful that women before me had the courage to fight and rally so that I could have the right to vote. I love my country, I am proud to be an American. I am proud to be an American Woman. I know that people like me are feeling disheartened this morning, but if we love this country, we will pull together and accept the choice that the majority of the American People made. I want Obama to be successful; I do not wish him failure. Our country depends on whether or not he can or will follow through with the “change” he promised.
I am proud of the fact that now our country can say that we are not a racist country. This is something I have always felt to be true, last night it was confirmed.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Happy Halloween...

Well it is not quite Halloween yet, but to me I feel like the holiday keeps coming and going. We had a fall festival at church and it was a lot of fun. As you can see the kids got all dressed up in their costumes and they were so excited. It was a like a trial run for Friday night! I also spent a couple of days in my classroom talking about Halloween and its history. I decorated my classroom with pumpkins, spiderweb, lights, and witches' brooms. I must say that this time of year is a lot of fun. In my district we get Halloween off, our fall break consist of two days which are usually the last two days in October, depending how it lands. I am resting at home and enjoying the two days that I have. Yesterday was Kennedy's birthday, and I didn't get to spend a lot of time with her since it was parent teacher's conferences and I had class. But today we are going to the mall and going to have some fun.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I am in love...

I had to share this picture with everybody. This is my nephew and me. I am in loooove. When I look at this little boy, I feel like he belongs to me. I know that he doesn't, but in some ways he does, right? He is my only nephew and I want to spoil him rotten. I try to imagine what the sound of his laugh is going to be like! I just want to tickle him and make him laugh. He is just a delight and such a blessing to my life. I love being an Auntie!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Fall at the Holt's house

I was looking around my house thinking of how much I love the fall. These pictures I took today while I was walking around my house. I love to decorate with my garland and special wreaths. I love the smells of the fall and I always spend money around this time of the year at Bath and Body works getting all the oils that help my house smell like the Fall. Growing up, my mother always had candy in a candy jar around Halloween. So of course, I have to fulfill the tradition! I have a special candy dish that is filled with candy the whole month of October. I even bought one for my desk at school. For the last couple of weekends I have been waking up real early and sitting out on my porch swing to watch the sun come up. For me, it is something that I always took for granted when I was a stay at home mom. Now I just love going out and enjoying the great weather. I always make these special cookies everyday after church. My kids know that Halloween is coming when I make these cookies. I also love the Fall because I know that is that much closer to Christmas. Even though my life isn't what I wanted it to be, and I am under a lot of stress, I am trying to make this time of year as happy as I can. I am usually glowing this time of year and loving every minute of it... I still am, but a little more hesitant because I am afraid of the future. I hate not know what life is going to be like a year from now. The sacrafices we are making right now will pay off. We will have a better life in the long run. And when I say a better life, I don't mean more "treasures", but security.
I love this time of year, and hope everyone else does too.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Who does this child belong to?

She belongs to Colby. Taylor is so funny! She walked in today all excited, and I asked her if she had looked in the mirror. She just gave me a funny smirk and said, "What?" Like she didn't look like a goof ball or something???? Just thought I would share the silly picture. Oh, and that is hot chocolate running down her clothes.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

The wait is over...

The wait is finally over... my brother is a daddy... never thought I would say those words. I am so excited to finally be an aunt. This has been such an emotional week so far. Kenny is going to be an amazing father... he just loves this little guy. For those of you who don't know my brother has been told his whole life that he would never be a father. With the advancement of medical technology, my brother now gets to enjoy the pleasure and blessing of being a dad. Parenthood is something that I have taken for granted, and I do believe that all babies, no matter how they get here, are so precious. But, I must say that when I look at Ryder, I stare in amazment. I think about what it took to get him here, and how grateful I am that this all came about. The Lord has really blessed me this week. I feel forever indebted to my Heavenly Father for giving me a nephew, and more importantly, giving my brother a son. Oh, I think I forgot to mention all the stats... we named him Kenneth Floyd Carden IV "Ryder". He weighed 7lbs 15.4 oz and was 20 1/2 inches long. Britt worked really hard to get him here, 30 hours of labor and finally an emergency c section. She was quite the trooper! And the payoff of all the work, she got a baby that looks just like her!

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Questions I was asked this week...

Okay, so I am always being asked questions, all day long! Of course, I am a teacher, that is what I do, I answer questions. Questions all day long can get a bit exhausting... but for the most part I am really patient and try to answer all of those questions... if I can't answer it, there is always Google. But the silly questions that I am asked are usually from my kids... okay, so are you ready for these????
1. "Mom, is it true that Marco Polo brought noodles from Italy to China?" - Taylor
2. "Mom, when did Chinese people discover American food?" - Taylor
3. "What does the word, A B S T I N E N C E, mean (as they spell it to me)?" - Lil Colby
4. "Do Chinese people do gymnastics?" - Taylor
5. "Did you walk by that tortilla place when you were little?" (Yes, I am so old that cars did not exsist!) - Taylor
6. "Mom, I don't want to whistle while I work!" - Marley (I know that is not a question, but I had to include it).

I guess it is clear that Taylor is the most curious one out of the group, does it surprise you? Anyway, I just jotted down these silly questions and thought I would share.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Decade day...

It was spirit week at Madison #1 (where I work). We had such a great time. Kennedy is in 5th grade so she dressed in the fifties and I am a 7th grade teacher, so of course I got to dress 70's. It was awesome. We had such a good time, it was a lot of fun. We also had a great time shopping for our costumes at the spirit store. The other picture is my friend Tiffany, she is the other 7th grade teacher. She is a great girl and I couldn't ask for a better "other half". She gets to teach 8th grade too, so she dressed in the 80's. It was so much fun and the students really got into it. Did I mention that I love my job!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

One year ago....

It was one year ago at this time we were enjoying ourselves in the most wonderful place on earth, Disneyland. In case you were wondering, I love Disneyland! I would choose to go there over any exotic island anyday! Nothing brings greater joy than when the gates open and you smell the churros, hear the laughter, see all the children with smiles on their face, and feel the excitement all the way to your bones. It is like Christmas morning the whole time you are there. We usually go every year at this time. The Holt's love Halloween. I think the older I get the more I love the fall. We are not there this year, but I know we will be visiting Disneyland soon. As I glance over at Marley's bedroom door, her Mickey Mouse ears hanging patiently until they can once again be used, I reflect on our life right now. I feel sort of like the Mickey Mouse ears hanging and waiting. Not too sure what the future brings, but in the meantime trying to work, raise a family, finish graduate school, and help my husband complete the police academy. I normally handle stress pretty well, but I will be the first one to admit that didn't know what I was getting myself into when Colby got accepted to the police academy. The only thing that has been keeping me going are my kids and pictures of those days when things were simple. I have caught myself getting lost in old scrapbooks, looking through old photo albums, and thinking about how simple my life was and now is so complex. In the midst of all the hecticness (if that is a word?) I am patiently waiting for the arrival of my nephew, Ryder. Another one of God's greatest miracles! I will post a picture as soon and the little man arrives.
I am grateful for my trials and the blessings that I receive each day. I know that the Lord has a plan for me and my family. I am so grateful to be married to my best friend. Even though this year I am not in Disneyland, I am preparing for greater things. A good friend of mine once told me, "If you are comfortable, you are NOT progressing." Everytime I feel uncomfortable or overwhelmed I think about the progress we are making as a family. Thanks Rejili.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Tough week...

Well, wow, it has been a little stressful this week. I have learned a lot about myself though... I am a control freak! If it is not in my control, I want nothing to do with it! I can tell you that I absolutely hate not being in control of my life! It is not a good feeling. Colby told me that I have to start living in the present, the past makes us depressed, and the future gives us anxiety. So true. But, I also know that we can only control 5% of our emotions, so there. Anyway, I hope everyone doesn't feel as though I am ignoring them. I am just really busy. I decided that I am not going to graduate this semester. I will finish all of my classes, but I am not going to take the test. I just have too much stress and I can't add to it. I will just pay an extra $400 to ASU to keep me an active student and I will take the test in the spring, easy enough and no stress! If I owned an "easy button" I would push it!

Monday, September 15, 2008

My Tay

I just had to share this with the rest of the world. My daughter,Taylor, is my ray of sunshine. She makes me laugh so much. If you haven't had the chance to get to know Taylor, you better because I know one day she is going to be famous. She resembles my Grandmother, Janice, which I am so thankful for. Once in awhile, she will give me this look, and I am taken back by how much she looks like my Grandma. I know that it is a blessing to have Taylor in our lives. She is such an amazing young lady! She is the only kid I have that would bust out with moves in the middle of Target. She just cracks me up. So anyway, check out this video of her in Target... too funny.

The day the world stopped turning...

9/11 is still so fresh in my mind. I can remember where I was, not physically, but emotionally. I had just found out that I was pregnant with Marley. I was only 23 years old and getting ready to have baby number four. Colby was doing construction and the economy was suffering. I remember being so afraid of the unknown. The security I felt growing up dissappeared in about 102 minutes.
On Thursday, I woke up earlier than normal and turned on the television to watch the news. This is something I never get to do now that I work. It was 4 o'clock in the morning and the big story was the anniversary of 9/11. I reflected on where I was when the world stopped turning, 7 years ago. I realized that the students I had now were in Kindergarten. I got out one of my old scrapbooks and took out the layout that I did shortly following 9/11. The twins just turned two and Kennedy was 4. Wow, time has passed by so quickly. I talked to my kids all the way to school and we talked about what happened that day. Colby was so full of questions. I told him that we still don't understand WHY, but it happened and we must learn from history. I also talked to my students that morning and shared with them the layout I did. I let them make comments or ask questions. They were all very respectful and understood the magnitude of the devastation that took place that day. I am so grateful for the country that I live in. I am grateful that I was chosen to live in the promise land and enjoy being free. I pray for those families who suffered losses.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Bitter Sweet...

Well who knew that shining boots would be such a big deal? After several hours, two types of shoe polish, and 1 google search... we are finished! Woo! Okay, so both of us are learning a lot, codes, 10s and polishing shoes, who knew? Everything is going okay. I started my first day of school last Wednesday (that will be the last time I "start" a semester, woo hoo!) It went smoothly. Colby got his first taste of what the academy was going to be like today, he said a was a bit like what he imagines hell is like. But, he survived. He officially starts the academy on Monday, please keep us in your prayers and thoughts as we try to conquer our next trial. It seems as though Colby and I have always had something extra on our plate besides LIFE. But I guess the Lord doesn't give us too much more than we can handle. We spent a little bit of quality time together this weekend. We visited with Jonathon and Tiffany while they were here for their sealing. We had a family gathering on Saturday for Britt and Kenny's baby shower. It was so nice to visit with everyone. Jeni and Robbie came over and we TRIED to go to Hobby Lobby but it was closed, bummer, but I can say that I saved a bundle of money. I got to go to Chipolte, which is extremely important. Jeni and I visited a lot and talked about music, which everyone knows how much I can talk about music. I love spending time with her. I feel like I got a part of me back when I am with her, you know, the old part of me. I am really proud of her taking that step and enrolling in college. It takes a lot of courage to enter the world of the unknown. It is inspiring to watch a person's life change. It has a been a great weekend and a wonderful start of another week. Teaching is going fantastic, enjoying it like always. I can't imagine spending my life doing anything else...

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Getting ready...

So Colby starts work in a week... can't believe it. He is so excited and nervous all at the same time. We are working really hard to get him ready. We will be going next week to get his uniforms (basically work out clothes) and boots. He got his hair cut and a new pair of running shoes (run forest run). Of course, Nikes. We have been practicing essays and doing spelling test. I start college next week (I'll never say those words again, my last semester, woo hoo) so I have some butterflies too. This week has been very calm, and I have been saying that to everyone. A teacher looked at me and said, "You know what they say, 'calm before the storm'." I hope that is not true but I know things are going to start getting a little more stressful. I know and believe that you can do anything if you believe in yourself. I believe in Colby and he believes in himself, so I know he will be successful. I was driving in my car the other day and heard an old song, The River, by Garth Brooks. I started to cry. I have heard that song so many times but right now in our lives it's lyrics have never been so true. Here at the lyrics for you incase it has been a while since you heard the song:

You know a dream is like a river

Ever changin' as it flows

And a dreamer's just a vessel

That must follow where it goes

Trying to learn from what's behind you

And never knowing what's in store

Makes each day a constant battle

Just to stay between the shores...

andI will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

Like a bird upon the wind

These waters are my sky

I'll never reach my destination

If I never try

So I will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

Too many times we stand aside

And let the waters slip away

'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow

Has now become today

So don't you sit upon the shoreline

And say you're satisfied

Choose to chance the rapids

And dare to dance the tide...

yesI will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

Like a bird upon the wind

These waters are my sky

I'll never reach my destination

If I never try

So I will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

There's bound to be rough waters

And I know I'll take some falls

But with the good Lord as my captain

I can make it through them all...

yesI will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

Like a bird upon the wind

These waters are my sky

I'll never reach my destination

If I never try

So I will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

Yes, I will sail my vessel

'Til the river runs dry

'Til the river runs dry